I see my brains laid out on the carpet maroon stains the white
I know I’m blessed but right now I just can’t see the light
My eyes are twitchin’ my fam will be missin’ my white ass
If I make that God-forbidden decision and let hell come to pass
Under my eyelids man it hurts but relief comes quick
I gotta tell you I wasn’t even depressed just sick
And tired of this bullshit it just never quits
I ain’t got enough of what I want and I needed it yesterday
Don’t want to work for it, just want it to come easy, just wanna play
Rewind it back pull the bullet into the gun
I can’t end this life now, it ain’t done
Not just for my fam but for myself
I gotta do what I can to lift myself up why else?
No other reason I just love me when it comes down to it, no pain or frustration can hide that for long
My will to live and thrive is too strong.